enough already

As a Sagittarius I'm an eternal optimist, but sadly there more depressingly self involved folks that have no idea how to co-exist with the people that begrudgingly stay in the same room with them. I think it's time to let these folks know that we've had enough. Let me be the first.....FUCK YOU!!!

November by Azure Ray.....it's like they know me.

So I'm waiting for this test to end 
So these lighter days can soon begin 
I'll be alone but maybe more carefree 
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly 
I was afraid to be alone 
Now I'm scared thats how I'd like to be 
All these faces none the same 
How can there be so many personalities 
So many lifeless empty hands 
So many hearts in great demand 
And now my sorrow seems so far away
Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain 
But I turn them off and tuck them away 
'till these rainy days that make them stay 
And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs 
And the words still ring, once here now gone
And they echo through my head everyday 
And I don't think they'll ever go away 
Just like thinking of your childhood home 
But we cant go back we're on our own 
But i'm about to give this one more shot 
And find it in myself 
I'll find it in myself 
So were speeding towards that time of year 
To the day that marks that you're not here 
And i think I'll want to be alone 
So please understand if I dont answer the phone 
I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls 
Until I can see nothing at all 
Only particles some fast some slow 
All my eyes can see is all I know 
But I'm about to give this one more shot 
And find it in myself 
I'll find it in myself 

you never know

I heard today that fellow I met a couple years ago passed away a couple days ago. This puts a lot into perspective for me. This guy, Tom, was one of the most genuine, honest, nice, real, giving people I've ever met in my life. In knowing him, I knew enough about myself that i wanted...needed even to be better. I don't know if I ever went that way, but hearing of his passing is as sad as I've felt in a while. In meeting him, I met ten times as many self-serving, ego-maniacal, pretentious, superficial dwellers of the underworld. I am happy to have known Tom, as I'm sure so many of our mutual friends can agree.

I'll leave you with a simple thought to ponder. Do you care more for how people make you feel or how you make them feel? A better person is the combination of both...that you feel better by making others feel better. That was Tom.

I'm here to help

This town is plagued with incessant whiners. It's gotten so bad that I decided to help those so apparently in need. The whining I'm referring to includes, but not exclusively their job, money woes, car, home, friends, family just to name a few. It's a sad state of affairs when these things get so bad they get you down and keep you there. Well, I'm here to help. I have a 3 step theory that will solve all of these problems.

1. Shut up!
2. Change things!
3...and this is the most important of these...Remember to keep number 1 in place.

Setting the tone

Being my first blog, I thought it might be a good idea to set the tone. I am someone that typically keeps my real feelings to myself albeit wearing my heart on my sleeve. Never a good idea I keep hearing. I want this place to be my unloading zone. That being said, I also want feedback. Brutal honesty is welcome as I will try my best to do the same.

First things first...I'm hungry and will be back later for a new post.